i hate myself :(
15.2.12 | 0 comments
tday i did sumthing stoopid. that is::sitting there like a log::
gosh i hate myself !!!
all this time i wanted to talk to him rite ?
well apparently i got myself a chance just now at school.
but i blew it :(
y did i blew it ?? uggh i'm such a wimp !!
everyday i'm waiting for a chance to talk to him
but everyday i blew those little chances
::when he walk past me•when he appeared out of nowhere infront of me•when he's sitting almost next to me:: i blew every one of em chances :(
but today was the biggest chances ever !! i blew that one too D:
he was waiting for his ride home at his usual place ( on a flyover )
usually he'll stay up there until his ride home arrive
but tday he came down n sat on the stairs ( of the flyover )
i was like " OMG OMG OMG !! "
i wanted to look at him but i can't
wut if he notice me ? :<
my friends was all laughin at me ( cuz i'm too panicky -.- )
but when all my friends had gone home ( leaving me alone at the bus stop )
i was thinking of tryin to approach him ( myb just sit next to him )
so i was thinkin hard bout going
i was like " get up get up !! go go go ! cmon !! "
i was like that for a while -.-
like a mannequin sitting there not moving
then his friends walk out of school straight to him
UGGHH!! ikr !!
i couldnt make up my mind until his friends came D:
then my mom came
so there goes my chance :(
but when i get in to my car
i noticed he looked at me :)
well not just him but all his friends too -.-
idk y~
if only i could turn back time...
tadako a.k.a Fahada
