unexpected sorrow~
5.11.10 | 0 comments
the way i look at you~different than usual my dear...
the way you look at me~
different than usual my love...
you stare at me not like the usual time~
you stare at me not even a minute~
u push your head the other side so that you could avoid lookin' straight into my eyes~
what is wrong with you baby~
or maybe i'm the one that is wrong~?
is that it sweetie?
if that is so~
those sorry words~
i will arrange the letters infront of you~
what is wrong now?
yesterday i apologised already right?
why did you avoid taking even a single step toward me?
so that's how it is?
you're obviously no good for me now~
you're a total loser~
leave me alone now~
you have no right to be near me~
BAM!
what is this light?
red?
blue?
what is this sound?
back and forth, in and out of my ears~
is it winter already?
i dont remember i'm in a blanket~?
why is it so cold?
mom?
dad?
where am i?
wait~
who are you?
my mom and dad?
who am i??!
and who are you?
my what?
i dont remember any of you~
where are you going now?
no where?
what?
you're avoiding me because you don't want to see my sad face when you're going away to australia forever?
so you were supposed to go to australia?
well, just go~
no one is holding you back~
and why should i be sad?
i dont know you~?
hahaha!!
is that so?
you're staying because you want to take care of me until i remember everything back?
go away jerk~!
i can take care of myself~
i have my mom and dad anyway~
i guess they are my mom and dad~
what?
oh~
you're thinking i'm still a little girl who cries all night?
afraid something is going to jump out and take me away?
stop it!
i know how to eat!
i know how to drink!
i know how to take a bath!
i know where the toilet are!
ok!!
fine i dont know anything!
oh my gosh!
look!
i cant even remember my own name~
so i supposed i cant do anything right huh??
i'm leaving then!
no one supports my life anyway!!
BAMM!!!
wait~!
w-where am i?
why is it so bright?
i cant feel my whole body and soul~!
why is everybody crying??
mom?
dad?
what happened???
answer me!!!
a doctor?
why is there a doctor??
hospital?
what are we doing here?
why is the doctor shaking his head?
what?
who has no pulse?
no heartbeat??
died?
who died??
mom!!
dad!!
who died??!!!!
me~?
i'm dead~?
i've been in a coma for 3 months??
i can't be dead!
i'm still talking!
can't you hear me?
no~
you guys are just tricking me right?
so you're going to keep ignoring me?
this is how you're going to treat me??
fine~
do what you want~
because i'm not needed anymore~
sorrowful meaning which ends here,
tadako a.k.a fahada
